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Heavy Heavy Plush

by Julep Maisey

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Maggie Grabmeier quiet grrrl is my new favorite genre. <3 amazing record Favorite track: Boys at the Show.
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a collection of songs written between 2015-2017

any and all money spent on this will be donated to the ACLU

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released January 27, 2017

Album art by Carly McKown
Music & Lyrics by Carly Mckown**
Lizzie Potter drums on tracks 8
Lily McKown plays lead guitar on track 7



**additional lyrics by Mitski (end of track 11)
and Frank Ocean (end of track 6)



thanks to liz, lily, maddy, drew, john and danny <3


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Track Name: Peach (Janey in Powder Blue)
lying awake the way janey does in powder blue
turning her brain off is all that she can do
when she gets it right you'll be the next to see
it's never easy when you trip right over me


like a violet baby it is all she knows
turning blank tables in the places we used to go


i'm doing all the work for you
i'm doing all the work for you
i'm doing all the work for you
i'm doing all the work for you
rubbing peach pits on the pavement
just to see what they will turn into
Track Name: I Forgot
siting in the top room
soaking in the street light
every since I moved away
I can never sleep at night

but I’m gone once I change
falling down with a different name
but I could still be the one you want
burying a bad seed
that’s never gonna be enough

and if you want we can just pretend
and I’ll pretend I understand
lost control of how it goes
but if you really want me
you gotta get better at sayin no

you’re just a friend but I forgot
you’re just a friend but I forgot
Track Name: Sick
I wish that I got sick of you
I wish that I got sick of you
I’m just sick of myself in my room
I wish that I got sick of you

I have this dream where I’m driving over
I don’t have a license
you’re sayin that it’s inevitable
but that you like it
and oh how the tables have turned
when I open my eyes you’re not concerned
it’s lost on the world for tonight
til I fall asleep and make everything
right

I wish that I got sick of you
I wish that I got sick of you
I did all that you told me to
I wish that I got sick of you
Track Name: Glaze
glazed eyes and marshmallow plans
holding open what you looked for
when this began

girls close their eyes to feel things
and wait to melt away in the spring

the impulse swims inside with guilt and greed
buried in the bones of flesh and meat

undid the knots that I tied
laid in the sun to bake and then to fry
to fry
to fry

do you remember how I behave
when you’re in the dark alone and decades away?
Track Name: Duh
sometimes I think about you
when I’m with my friends I don’t really like
yr my absolute favorite delusion
making all my pipe dreams so life like
and I can’t speak and I’m not better today
but I am better on the page from real far away

and I don’t really wanna complain
but I will
I don’t really wanna complain
but I will
I don’t really wanna complain but I will
but I will
I will

you probably should have learned by now
not to let her get too close to the edge
you could talk me out of anything but you
can’t talk me down from this ledge


and I don’t really wanna complain
but I will
I will
Track Name: Rly Hpy
***i may be younger
but i look after you
were not in love
but i make love to you
when you’re not here
I save some for you
I’m not him
but I mean something to you
I mean something to you
you got a roommate
he’ll hear what we do
it’s only awkward if you’re fuckin him too**
Track Name: Boys at the Show
all the boys at the show are skinny
and love fugazi
and they all have five o clock shadow
all the boys at the show wear baseball caps
cause lookin like a dad circa 1991
is really comin back

all the boys at the show can tell you
about their English degrees
or sometimes advertising
or even history
all about a radio show they once had in college
where they played mac demarco
radiohead and tame impala
or about how they once took a punch to the face
so toughly and how they once dated a girl who
kinda looked like me


I don’t care that we made out in a bathroom
one time I don’t wanna go on a date with you
or hear what’s on your mind
You’re the kind of boy writing bad pitchfork reviews
Sees irony in romance
But secretly listens to brand new
you’re like cheap candy
I can save you now or later
But I’d prefer that we just shut it down

all the boys at the show are skinny
and love fugazi
and they all have five o clock shadow
all the boys at the show wear baseball caps
cause lookin like a dad circa 1991
is really comin back
Track Name: On Purpose
I might be vain but at least I’m not selfish
I’ve given up too many times if you count this
I’m far too small to see
all the things that are no good for me
I was taught that I don’t deserve anything
I had some standards but I gave up many things
on purpose
just so you know
I didn’t want any of those

So let’s take a drive and go home
and whisper to these walls alone
sippin on something too strong
been lyin to myself for far too long

cause I need some validation
I wanna be figured out like a math equation

Please take me out of my box
They let me forget how to do it myself
Track Name: Half Awake
Metal bellied mailboxes
Hold letters just from people I don’t wanna hear from today
I am covered in dirt but I could walk forever
I shouldn’t need to be charmed to know I’m feeling okay


Drifting up on the shore
Stuck with the same advice and just like before
I'll try to shrink down these vices

All the pills at the bottom of this vacation
They all give me the same sensation

Do you think that I could work this out on my own?
Do you think that I could be anymore prone to
Being tricked like a kid with a treat
Or being bribed
By all of my
Dirty greed


I’m not half awake for no one
Track Name: Just Don't
How many black little lacey things do I need?
How many books in my room do I still have to read?
How many stupid songs do I need to know?
How many striped t-shirts does one girl need to own?

I’m not getting any younger I’m just growing up
How long until I don’t give a fuck?

And if you’re thinking about kissing me
please don’t
if you’re thinking about touching me
just don’t
and if you’re thinking about being nice to me
don’t
if you’re thinking about kissing me
please don’t
just don’t

life’s not getting any better it’s just going by
what’s one more night in my room getting high?
You don’t like when I’m sad and I use that tone
I think I just want you to drive me home

And if you’re thinking about kissing me
please don’t
if you’re thinking about touching me
just don’t
and if you’re thinking about being nice to me
don’t
if you’re thinking about kissing me
please don’t
just don’t
Track Name: Dirty Hair
I had these ghosts before you and I’ll
Have them when you leave
But all I ever asked of you is just to
Stay still and look at me

Sitting on the shower floor
Soaking there sleeping in
Watching you salt your sores
Knowing where you have been

No I’m not angry
But I end up so bruised
You know what is good for me
But all I ever do is wake up confused

You didn’t mean not yet
You meant never
But I’m waiting on the day
when you slip my mind forever

THIS IS WHAT I MEANT WHEN I SAID I WANT IT BAD
This is just a dream
I’m asleep
I take it back

I’ll leave my head when I need to
And you can leave my house when it feels good to you